Writer's Block

It frustrates me that I can’t write. I feel like there’s a story inside somewhere, but when I sit down to actually write it, I freeze. Can I really only write 500 words or less in corporate business speak?

When I was a little girl, writing “books” was one of my favorite things. Anything was story-worthy. Now I feel like I have to write the great American novel every time I have a quiet evening to myself. Those quiet evenings usually end in frustrated Facebook surfing.

I still love to write. I feel like it’s what I do best. The one skill I have that’s actually marketable. But I really want to write a story. I want to be invested and involved in characters. I want to craft a plot. But how? When I think of an idea, I’m usually sick of it by the time I’m done thinking about it. Probably not a good start to a book. I feel like I need to let my mind just go. Let it be free of the constraints of seven years of marketing pointless products of all shapes and software.

I've thought a lot the past year about what I want, who I am, and how I want to spend my life. I think these are answers I'll ponder for many years to come, but one thing I'm sure of is that creative expression through writing is something I want. Now that I know I want it, I need to make time to do it.

But first, I need to free myself of my own expectations. Stop worrying about perfection and just writing. Stop worrying about finishing and actually get started.

That’s my goal for 2014. To write something that means something to me.