Watching, Catching, Playing

I happened to read in Proverbs today. I love Proverbs. They are simple and wise. Even after multiple millennia the message is as resonate today as it was to ancient Israel: seek wisdom over wealth, choose righteousness over pleasure, trust God over man.

It started me thinking – what if I wrote a Proverb every day? A little gem of wisdom to capture what I'm thinking or learning that day. 

Here it goes...

Happy is the woman who has a mother who has walked her path before.

Motherhood is hard for me, harder than I thought. Max is a miracle, a dream, my joy. But each day sometimes feels like a mind-numbing repeat of the day before. I don’t know what to do with myself but then I realize I can’t really do anything. My job right now is to watch, catch, and play. Watch, catch, play. Watch, catch, play. It’s weird combination of boredom and busyness, inactivity and exhaustion. Having my mom, who has traveled this very road three times reassure me that I’m doing a good job, that there really is nothing I’m supposed to be doing besides watching, catching, playing is a balm to my guilt-ridden, self-doubting, bored-out-of-my-skull soul.